This is where I falter. This is where my nerves start going crazy and my insides are constantly on edge. This is when I need help. It's when I hit exhaustion because sleep does not come easy. It's when my heart's walls have been penetrated and moved and I feel as if I'm being pulled in multiple directions. It's when I get short-sighted and do not focus on the long term hopes and dreams. It's when I begin to make other plans, when I reconcile failed plans with the ultimate Planner, come to peace, start dreaming about other possibilities and then am suddenly jerked into another reality. A good reality. A reality I've hoped for. When a dream seems too good to be true and then it comes to pass. When the hopes of coming back here later this year for a few more weeks or another month are suddenly put out because a new reality holds the trump card. My heart aches tonight, a lot. It's a good ache, sure. It still aches.
Father help me. Overcome the limits I place on Your GOOD and FULL OF LIFE plans for my life.
1 comment:
I understand what you are saying and that your heart is aching, BUT you will go back, just not as quickly. All that is happening now is good for the future, I know you know that. You still have some time there, make the most of it, get some rest and tomorrow will be better. A good nights rest will do wonders. We love you so much. M&D
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