Please, when you understand the title of this post, pardon the expression.
It goes something like this…
The day I arrived to Costa Rica, nearly 5 years ago, I was sleep deprived, anxious, and excited. My host family gathered me from the airport and eventually showed me to my temporary home and room. Once I settled in, I really didn't know what else to do given that I had no idea where the school I was planning to attend classes was located and I couldn't just call someone and make a plan to meet for coffee. So, as was needed, I took a nap. It wasn't exactly the best idea. You know those moments you're caught in the middle, between sleep and wakefulness? I was caught in one of those moments and had a pretty awful feeling fall over me. "W.T.H.D.I.G.M.I.?!!?!!!!!!!!" Yep, there it is- WHAT THE HELL DID I GET MYSELF INTO?" I had an awful feeling in the pit of my stomach for the rest of the day. I think it finally began to fade when I met my friend Anita from Switzerland (she's been in many previous blog posts).
Well, I promised in a previous post to share those small steps forward and here is a bit of a clue (though I think most of you already know where I'm headed). I woke up this morning with that same feeling of "What am I about to do?" It's a bit different this time around because I have an awareness that I lacked the last time around. It's really not that crazy, but it still causes me to question. I KNOW, KNOW, KNOW that this stint away is what I want and where I need to be heading, but it still causes my head to freak out. And then I thank God that He knows and will fulfill His promises to me as I walk forward.
In four words: Prince of Peace, Guatemala
More to come!
2 comments:
I LOVE how REAL you are - it's beautiful & refreshing!
You ARE doing the RIGHT thing - I might say differently if you were moving there! XO
oh s, I actually wrote those words in my journal the last time I came here for the first time. (and I think I thought them again this time!) you can be sure it's right, and still freak out; I get it! but He is GOOD and will FILL YOU along the way; giving you what you need for each day, each moment. promise! xoxo
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